It's My Party .....

This shit so has to stop. It could be the lack of sleep catching up with me, the weather, or the stress of this coming tuesday but whatever the hell it is I have been sick as a dog for going on two days. Not fun... But my migraine is gone, tummy is settled, my eyes don't feel like they are going to exit my head and I am awake. So score. I can do nothing about Tuesday but make the call and tell the truth, which hey that worked the first time. I can cross my fingers it will work again. If it doesn't this time than I will deal with it. But making myself sick over it does nothing. As for the rest of it, I been in worse places in my life. If I have learned anything, it is no one can fix my problems but me. So I made the wrong choice. So I got fucked over. So I believed people I knew who were lying because my heart wanted to. It happens all the time, to so many different people, for so many different reasons. I can shut down and let fear rule my life or I can move on and make the next choice. Good or bad at least the choice will be mine. And so my pity party really needs to end. Even though the decorations are fabulous ;)